Khloé Kardashian recalled the devastating moment when her ex-husband, Lamar Odom, destroyed her beloved journals. The “Keeping Up With the Kardashians” alum reflected on the “traumatic” time the ex-athlete burned her diaries right in front of her on Wednesday’s episode of her “Khloé In Wonderland” podcast. Kardashian, 41, said that she used to love journaling and would write about everything happening in her life. “I loved it and everything was in these journals,” she said. “And I remembered my ex-husband was going through it.” Odom, who struggled with substance abuse issues during their marriage, was allegedly having “a tough time.” “He was incredibly paranoid and found these journals that he knew I did all the time and was reading them and just was convinced that I was like, taking notes and sending them to the government or something crazy,” Kardashian said. Odom proceeded to take all of her journals and throw them into a fire right in front of the Good American founder. “I remember sobbing, tears streaming down my face,” Kardashian recalled. “I could remember me on my knees, screaming, like it was years of my life in these journals, and they meant so much to me.” Kardashian said that she never journaled again after that. “Because I just felt like, wow, that was taken away in a f-king blink, and what was the point?” she wondered. While Kardashian no longer finds peace in journaling, she still believes it can be an “incredibly therapeutic process” for others. “I wish I had those books just to see like, what were my thoughts then,” she said. “That’s the special part of journaling you look back, I don’t know, five years, 10 years, two years, and you’re like, ‘Wow, I was such an idiot. What was I writing about?’ Or, ‘I can’t believe that mattered to me the way it did then.’” “That’s what’s so special about journaling, is seeing your emotional state and how far you came or if you need something to reflect on or maybe inspire,” she continued. “It’s such a beautiful process to do, and so I do hate that I don’t do it anymore.” Kardashian said that there is a part of her that doesn’t want to “risk” that heartbreak happening again. “I’m not going to start a journal again and have someone destroy it, or I lose it. It’s more, I’m going to say traumatic for me, but I just don’t even want to open that up again,” she said. Instead, Kardashian uses the scarring memory as a lesson that nothing is permanent in life. “I think it just made me [realize] . you don’t get to really keep anything in this world, and it’s, maybe that’s OK,” she said. “I used to hold onto all these things, and sometimes I will write something, but then just throw it away. I don’t try to replace what I once had.” Kardashian and Odom, 46, met in 2009 and tied the knot after one month of knowing each other. Their marriage was captured on camera in their two-season E! reality show “Khloé & Lamar,” but their relationship quickly deteriorated due to Lamar’s drug use and infidelity. The Hulu personality filed for divorce in 2013. They put their breakup on pause after Odom overdosed in 2015, with Khloé remaining by his side through his recovery.
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